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“Year of Your Own Life”

The Chinese zodiac operates on a 12-year cycle and according to the lunar calendar. Every 12th year from the one you were born is momentous; it’s your “本命年” (literally translated: the “year of your own life”) and it can be fraught with danger, but also opportunity.

And 2012, the year of the dragon, was my ”本命年”.

As Chinese astrology predicted it would be, 2012 was huge. It was full of self-doubt (and lots of it), but also bold moves. It humbled me, inspired me, made me smile and want to cry. And I loved the good and the bad equally because both arose from my choices. 2012 confirmed my deeply independent streak, but also taught me how to truly appreciate the people in my life. 2012 also introduced me to incredible new friends and kindred spirits.

It finally brought me back to Afghanistan, something 3 years in the making, and reminded me of where my story – or at least this thread of it – began.

I’ll look back on 2012 and remember it as the year that I grew up and (cliche as it is) became the person that I was always meant to be. It was that “start of the rest of my life” that I had always waited for.

In 2012, I’ve finally stopped waiting.

And to make 2013 even better than momentous 2012, two New Year’s resolutions. Because every year is a year of your own life.

If running is more difficult, run more. This lesson applies to anything.

2013 Resolution # 1: Learn not to run from the things that I find hard . This is advice that I’ve always ignored -until now. 
Never regret

2013 resolution #2: Have faith, believe in yourself and your decisions, and never, ever regret anything. I’ve gotten much better at this in 2012, but I’ve still got a ways to go…

Moments

The last few weeks have been hard.

First there was the personal stuff – the big move, the towed car, the relearning to live with another person and two cats in a small space.

Then there was the professional – I’ve learned through small wins and big mistakes how to (or how not to) run a marketing campaign, taken on 4 additional social media accounts without 4 additional sources of income (or close), and asked myself again and again what I’m doing with my life and why.

The closest thing I have to an answer is this photo above. It’s these small moments, when the sun is shining, my office is my Ikea couch, and my coworkers are two sleepy animals, that make it worth it.

THIS is why I quit my job to do my own thing – to work where I want and on my terms.

So let this photo be a reminder: I wanted this freedom – and all the uncertainty it entails.